7 Weeks!!!!

And nooo....not 7 weeks along!!!  I know this is April Fool's Day and all....but as much as I love a good joke, this is a completely SERIOUS manner for me:

7 weeks from TODAY my daughter will be 5 months old and we will be meeting her for the first time!!!! =)  I can hardly believe that after 18+ months of dreaming of our daughter, that I am finally saying that!  And no, it doesn't feel real yet.  SHE feels real...but her becoming part of our family still feels like a fantasy.  After all, how can someone "feel real" when you have yet to hear their cry, or kiss their lips, or caress their tiny fingers.  Or even seeing their face IN PERSON with your own two eyes!!!  It reminds me very much of being pregnant...feeling that squirm of a tiny being within you and yet life with a baby still feels unimaginable.  (Except that even with that thought I feel jealous....I would do anything to feel her squirm.)

If you would have told me a year ago I would be waiting this long to hold our daughter at last, I probably would have cried.  And although I've shed many tears for many different reasons...I've learned a new meaning to the phrase "His ways are not my own".  Never has it felt more personal.  Never have I been more thankful for that truth.

Psalm 40:1-5

"I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry.  He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand.  He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God.  Many will see and fear and put their trust in the Lord.  

Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods.  

Many, O Lord my God, are the wonders you have done.  The things you planned for us no one can recount to you; were I to speak and tell of them, they would be too many to declare."