Something is going on in my little girl's world right now. I don't know what, or if I will ever find out...but I know that God has knit our hearts together, even now.
After 15 months of being paper pregnant, I'm officially convinced that I am more hormonal now than during my pregnancy with Lil Man.
This weekend I have been a mess. Emotionally, there is pure excitement going on in my heart...but my body and my heart seem a little disconnected at the moment. I can count four separate times during this past weekend that I have burst into tears for no apparent reason. SERIOUSLY.
The first time it happened was shortly after my niece's first birthday party (13th). I remember sitting and watching her open her gifts and eat her cake with a huge smile! It was such a beautiful celebration! Afterwards, I was sitting with my mom and my sisters and my nieces. ALL the boys had moved downstairs to watch sports and we were enjoying some girl conversation for a change (the boys just SLIGHTLY outnumber the girls in our family)! I smiled to myself picturing our little sweetie there. The party was over...we were all getting ready to go look at my brother's house that is being built....my mom asked me a question...and I burst into tears! I don't know where it came from, I wasn't feeling all that emotional...but it was like this BOMB went off as water came spewing from my eyes! Fortunately my mom is a cryer and she understands! =)
The second time was the following day at church (14th). Some girls were doing a lyrical dance to "How great is our God" prior to the sermon and I was sitting there watching and POOF!!! Tears STREAMING down my face! This was the UGLY cry people! No tissue either! Just an eye-rolling husband and a giggling mom on either side of me. After I stopped the flood, I headed to the bathroom to gather some tissue for the next explosion...
The third time was on the way to take our car to the shop (15th). I was literally MID-conversation about THE CAR when it happened AGAIN!!! This time there was no eye-rolling, but pure concern coming from my husband! What on earth has gotten into his wife?!?
The fourth time was AT the repair shop (15th). NO idea...
WIERD, huh? On top of that....Saturday night/Sunday morning my mom and I BOTH had a dream about Lil Miss! My mom dreamed that it was our referral day and woke up just plain GIDDY. I dreamed that I was holding her and looking into her wide eyes (and she had looong lashes) and kissing that huge grin =) Then I set her down and she started crawling. Someone else picked her up and she cried and reached for her mama again and I was thinking how great she was attaching to me.
I mean...there's just GOT to be something going on, right?!? I'm ready.