Thursday, December 2, 2010

Fifteen and a Half...

...MONTHS!

That's how long we've been waiting for our baby girl {total, not just waitlisted}.  Some days it goes fast.  Some days it goes slow.  Some days I feel God's peace.  Other days my heart really hurts.

There's no way to accurately describe what it feels like to know your daughter is across the world without you.  Some days I find comfort in the thought that her birthmom could be enjoying those last few moments with her (which breaks my heart all the same).  But DAILY I can find comfort in the fact that the Heavenly Father is holding her in His ever-capable hands. 

As I'm sure I've said a million times...
  • I do know that God's timing is always perfect.
  • I do know that every second of this wait will be worth it.
  • I do know that God has our daughter hand-picked for our family.
I do see the light at the end of the tunnel...but it doesn't make my heart hurt any less. 

Baby Girl,
I just pray that somewhere you are laying comfortably, warm, with a full belly, and feeling showered with love.  I'll be there soon.
xoxo Mama

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11 comments:

Jenny said...

every phase of the wait is hard, but in many ways, i think where you're at right now is one of the hardest parts! praying and praying for you!

Lara said...

Hopefully that slew of referrals yesterday perked your spirits a little!! I can't imagine what the end of the waitlist must be like. Torture, I'm sure!

erica said...

Awww! Love your little love note. And I know how you feel - I've been feeling the same way. So glad that there are others out there who know exactly what we're going through and can share in our journeys with us. Have a wonderful day!

Mindy said...

My heart echos yours so much! I'm there too friend. You aren't alone and I'll send up an extra prayer for you today. :)

Brandon and Kari + 1 said...

I am praying with your family right now...I know exactly how waiting and seeing everyone else welcome babies home (either through adoption or pregnancy). By the time Westyn comes home we will be in the "kid" process for 26 months and on the adoption journey for 14 months...praying with you :)

"Are These Kids All Yours?" said...

PRAYING!!! I am sure it will be soon.

The Milich Family said...

Oh Megan,
That last line broke me.. "I'll be there soon." Keeping you all in my thoughts and prayers! You're in the home stretch!

mom vg said...

Sweet daughter,
This time, the stretch marks are on your heart.:) Loving you!

Katy said...

Your note to your baby girl literally made tears stream down my face. She is going to love her mama, I can definitely tell you that!

Kristin said...

The waiting is hard. Hubby and I have been waiting for almost 2 years. But we have grown so much during this time. I am not the same person I was when He started this in us. I am grateful for that, and am at His feet till they are home with us. Thanks for your honesty!

Debb said...

My Momma heart hurts for you Momma heart! You are right the waiting will be MORE than worth it, but it still hurts, nonetheless! Trust that your sweet baby feels your love and God's love. I believe that. Somehow God lets that happen ~ even half-way across the world! Praying your wait is over SOON!!!!!! So that all this pain of waiting can be covered with the JOY and EXCITEMENT of your daughter! Blessings ~