The room transformation is on schedule and going great...
Nursery plans are in gear and will be put into action soon...
Our good friends Justin and Niki just got their referral and I can't stop smiling...
Movement on the girl's list has been ASTOUNDING lately...
Got to spend a couple days at my brother's house in Portland loving on his family...
The holidays are rapidly approaching...
Finances are improving...
The list goes on and on...and the smiles come easily.
But INside there's a battle going on. Through this excitement, satan is trying to find ways to discourage me. Now that I have finally come to terms with God's timing in this adoption process and truly feel at peace with it...anxiety about things so completely out of my control is starting to set in now that this wait is coming to a close. It frustrates me. It angers me. It's hard to come out and say, in all honesty. But I recognize it for what it is.
See...when our little girl is finally placed in our arms and comes home, that makes one less orphan in the world. The devil despises that. So I know that he is trying to sneak that discouragment in there. I don't want to let him.
Please pray for me as I am fighting this battle of discouragement. The end is near...the light is at the end of the tunnel...our adoption WILL come to a close and we WILL finally have our Lil Miss.
I think this picture so beautifully illustrates our journey because its not JUST about the light at the end of the tunnel (although we are very excited to get there), but also about the journey getting there. Its a beautiful journey. Even in the difficulties, God has been there holding our hand and He's had something to teach us every step of the way. I wouldn't take a moment of it back, even if I could, because He has taught me so much. I know He'll carry me through the end.
P.S. A special thanks to my VERY loved AGCI family for talking me through my anxieties, reassuring me, encouraging me, and praying me onward! You words are CHERISHED!
9 comments:
Hang in there girl!! I know it is hard. Just keep your eyes on the cross and let Jesus see you through!! You are so close!! Thanks for sharing your heart!!
We are definitely praying for you guys Megan...I know exactly how you are feeling...all in God's timing everyone says & we know this but sometimes it is still hard!! Prayers!!
I've been praying for you today!
You are getting so close and once we reached the top 10 I feel that is when Satan really attacked us and it was very hard. Hang in there, she is coming and we are all so excited for you :)
Wanted to say that I so share all of your fears--you described them so well... Love that God stirs our hearts to hear his call and I KNOW that it is his heart to reach the fatherless and in that I KNOW that he has put those desires in our hearts for a very special purpose. Oh--can hardly wait with you to see our little girls' faces!!!
Praying with you!
~Gini :)
Girl, I am praying for you! Thanks for sharing your heart! I can't even imagine all the emotions of being so close like ya'll are right now! Keep going back to God's Word and reading His promises...His Word is such a powerful weapon in fighting this spiritual battle! And you're right, love the pic...what a beautiful journey we're on!
Praying for you! Hang in there-- you're on the home stretch. I know it sounds cliche, but you really will be able to look back at the end of your journey and see God's hand and perfect timing in it all.
xoxo
Beautiful post, and I love the picture of the light at the end of the tunnel. Satan has been trying his best to discourage me lately too, and although he is quite successful at times, I know that God is so much more powerful. The journey IS beautiful, just like you said, and I have learned so much through it as well. You are in our thoughts and prayers - may God wrap His loving arms of peace around you and hold you closely as you wait to see what happens next! = )
So touched. Blessings to you and your growing family!!!
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