Today marks the 10 month anniversary of being put on the waitlist! Back in April, when we got our first official waitlist number....we were quoted an 8-10 month wait to see our baby girl's face. At that time, referrals were taking right about 8 months, so as you can imagine...we never DREAMED we would even make it to the 10 month mark.
Surprising even my expectations though, today has not been filled with tears or disappointment, but rather JOY! God has brought us SO far on this journey. When I imagined this leg of this journey, I imagined a tear-filled, torturous wait. And while this has been an emotional roller coaster, I continue to marvel at things God has taught me about myself:
I am capable of patience.
I can feel an overwhelming amount of love for someone I have never met.
My body can go through hormonal changes without a physical pregnancy.
I can experience the "peace that transcends all understanding".
Just to name a few...
Today I have a verse on my chalkboard (which I may or may not have told you about before) that I read everyday to remind myself of God's perfect timing. Beneath it, I have our current number framed. Next to that, is a giraffe...a gift from my friend Niki...the first item from my daughter's birth country that I get to hold in my hands! But this isn't just any giraffe....this is a pregnant giraffe. A giraffe's pregnancy lasts about 15 months, so I can relate to the creature right now! (Although I feel more like an elephant, who has a 22 month pregnancy, at this point!) These items are there to represent the missing member of our family, who we think about and pray for everyday. Although I love looking at this right now...I can't WAIT to replace that number with a photo of my angel's face! That day can't come soon enough =)